I've started watching a new TV series, the walking dead. It's about a bunch of people trying survive after a zombie apocalypse. It is really good and worth watching, I recommend everyone to see it, while impatiently waiting for the next episode of  the Big bang theory to be released, zombie freak or not. Only bad thing is that there's only five episodes so far, and after watching them I find myself being as impatient waiting for the next one as I am waiting to see what Sheldon Cooper is doing next. I demand more episodes of both these series, and that they release like 5 episodes a day to satisfy me!

Busy, busy weekend. Had a lovely restaurant visit friday night. I tasted pheasant for the first time in my life and it was really amazing. Main course was moose, something I've not eaten in many years, so to say it was a great night is no understatement. I even had champagne, omg! Considering the night ended with tequila it's pretty amazing I actually got something done saturday. But now some of the christmas decor is in place, the baking is done, and now I'm dead tired. Possibly by the really late nights I've had this weekend, but it's all good. I have two more days and nights to rest before I set off on my new adventure wednesday morning.

Lussekatter that I made yesterday, I'm so proud :P

Went to see the new Harry Potter film today, it was really nice. But the annoying thing is that I have to wait quite some time to see how it ends. I'm thinking of reading the books, don't know why I haven't already, but I do think it is time I get around to it.

And since it's the first advent sunday today, I thought I would show you the advent candles that I've made. Well I didn't actually make the candles but I did the decor, which clearly took a lot of effort and hard work. :D

First candle is lit!

It's the end of the world! Well sort of. Well not really. It's more like a big change of the world.... of warcraft.
I'm such a geek I know. But hey guess what! This year I will put a mistletoe in my backpocket, so you can kiss my ass! :P

It's christmas soon! I love this time of the year. I love the pretty lights, the dark and all the sparkling colours. I love it all! I'm gonna decorate my house this weekend and I'm also going to bake gingerbread cookies and lussekatter! (Lussekatter is a swedish saffron bun that is just lovely). And when I'm done, my house is going to look like santas workshop blew up in here, and it's gonna smell all christmasy and nice, ooh I can't wait!

There’s no reason to cry. One cries because one is sad. For example, I cry because others are stupid, and it makes me sad.

Haven't blogged in a while, time to change that. I'll do it a little later! In the meantime you can enjoy this picture.

<--- Without make up   -   With makeup --->
conclusion? make up is your friend.

Sheldon Cooper FTW

I can't get enough of this guy! Dr. Sheldon Cooper. The best character ever made. He is, in no doubt, the perfect human being. For those of you that have not yet seen the show, the big bang theory, do it NOW!

Just woke up, at 16.55... Been a while since I've slept that late. Yesterday was nice and relaxed, a good substitute for what could've been, but next time, RELEASE A FEW MORE TICKETS WILL YA! Just my luck, when there's a good band playing close to home, it instantly sells out. Now of course, there was 2 good bands. Oh well.

I haven't been awake for that long today yet, but still something happened first thing that managed to change my mood quite fast. Being called a hypocrite for something I write in my blog. It's quite interesting how something you write concerning one person also fits another one. Perhaps I should start using names of people when I write to prevent misunderstandings, but then again. If there's a lot of people taking things I write to heart, there is something more behind it than what is being said. Either way, I don't like being called a hypocrite, which I've already told you. I've never been afraid of speaking my mind, and the reason I didn't write it out more clear in the blog is that it was simply my thoughts on the matter, and didn't concern anyone else than me and the person involved. Well, confusing eh, since it seems more than one took it to heart... Anyhow, didn't mean to offend anyone.

Gosh, I think I need to lie down for a bit again, trying to sort this out makes my poor little head spin.

Happy friday!

I had some good news arriving in my mail today, and I'm really excited about it. Now it's just a long wait ahead! Not gonna reveal what it's about just yet, so curious minds just gonna have to wait.

Now, it's time to hit the shower, find something fancy to wear and head off to a little "dinner party" with my pretties. No more sitting around waiting for people that doesn't want to spend time with me. Oh I feel so enlightened!

I decided it's time to stop putting my life on hold. I will no longer wait for something that's not gonna happen, but enjoy the people and things I have around me. And it will all start with a very interesting meeting tomorrow. Can't wait!

My

I started watching Stephen Hawking's universe, on discovery science today (yesterday). It was really enjoyable. He is such a remarkable man, and what a fascinating mind! Almost like my own! Err... well. If I could go back in time I would study physical cosmology as well!

I must read his books. I've been thinking about it for a while, but never got around to do it.

Stephen Hawking

Happiness in a box. Not only does this perfume smell wonderful, it comes in a gorgeous box. I absolutely love it!

So I was bored. And what's more fun than to play with your makeup?!

And yes, hair is white again.

And also terrible, terrible light in picture, cba to edit.

But now, here's some real awesomeness. Alice!

Unbelievable how much a tooth can hurt after seeing the dentist. Had the tooth prepared for a root canal this saturday, and since then I can't sleep. Need painkillers constantly, this is horrendous. Had I known about this I'd just have the damn tooth removed. ARRGH

From one Alice to another...

I brought home a new baby today. A 12 weeks ginger kitten who got the name Alice. Yes, she got named after Alice in resident evil, because she is also beautiful and I'm sure she will be a great zombie slayer when she grows up!

Robert's left a big hole in my heart since he dissapeared, and I had decided that I wouldn't get a new cat. Robert is so special to me, and I can't really come to peace with the thought of never getting to see him again, thinking about him still makes me cry. And even though no one can ever replace him, I can already feel Alice filling a bit of that hole, and it feels good to have a kitten back in the house.

What a random day. Dinner at Ikea, dessert at the supermarket and coffee at Mc Donalds.

Went to see Resident evil afterlife last night. A film I've been looking forward to for some time, but I must say that I'm quite disappointed. Overall it just seemed like a new version of extinction, just in a different environment and with a Matrix feeling to it. There was however a few things that was quite cool. I really liked the Silent hill-pyramid head rip off. Huge scary guy dragging a big ass weapon. Milla Jovovich ofc, she is hot! And I like her interpretation of Alice. The 3D effects was really cool too, sometimes I wanted to duck when axes and bullets were flying around. Apart the average story and the rubbish ending I think that Milla Jovovich and the cool effects is mostly what made this film worth watching. Shame really, since I am a big fan of the Resident evil games, and the films, so I was expecting a little bit more.

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Election tomorrow, hope all of you swedes that's not voted yet do so tomorrow. If you don't, you don't get to whine the coming four years either! 

So nut up or shut up!

There's a big election coming up in Sweden, this Sunday actually. We vote for who's gonna run Sweden the coming four years. I've already made my decision of who I think is suited the most to run our government, and I  voted earlier this week. I hope everyone gets off their asses this week and place their votes.

There is one thing that has annoyed me greatly the last weeks, and that is all whiners. I can't remember ever being this annoyed over something like this. Perhaps this has something to do with facebook. I'm not a very huge fan or user of facebook. I check in once in a while, place a completely useless status update and that's about it. The last weeks however I've been checking it more regularly, just out of curiosity. One thing I've always known is that facebook is full of whiny, attention seeking people with a little less than average intelligence, at least that's the image they are putting out there. Well, with this said, I think it pretty much explains my view of facebook and it's users.

 But anyway, the election and facebook. It's amazing how narrowminded some people are, and that they don't think before posting something. These people anger me greatly, and I know that I shouldn't even be bothered by what they say, but stupidity gives me allergies, and I'm fucking fuming. What annoys me the most is that people just write whatever they heard through someone else or rumours, and because they heard it, it must be true. It makes me want to punch someone in the face. GO READ UP YOU FUCKS, THEN EXPRESS YOUR OPINIONS! It might make you look a bit less of a fool. I'm not even gonna vent my opinions, at least not on facebook. I strongly believe in the saying, "Never argue with an idiot, they'll drag you down to their level and beat you with experience". However, if someone wants to debate or discuss any matter with me, they are more than welcome to do so, I'd prefer it not to be on facebook though, but if that's the case, then so be it.

Now, if anyone reading this is taking it personal and getting offended, then good. Perhaps you learned something and think twice before posting something dumb next time.

Another thing that angers me is Nickleback. Clearly not a favourite band of mine, but this morning I was listening to the radio for a change, and they played the song "Rockstar". Chad Kroeger... Chad, Chad, Chad... Where to begin?! I don't like you Chad! You can't sing and you write aweful songs and you are a two-faced fool! And with that face, it's not a good thing to have two. But lets talk about the song Rockstar now. These lines can be found in the lyrics, "I want a brand new house on an episode of cribs", and a bathroom I can play baseball in, and a king size tub, big enough for ten plus me", "Cause we all just wanna be big rockstars and live in hilltop houses driving fifteen cars". This is what you have Chad. I saw your episode on cribs. I'm not sure how to read into these lyrics. Is it a serious try to mock the world of the rich and famous, or are you just dumb? Talk about putting your foot where your mouth is. Either way, YOU FAIL CHAD, JUST GO AWAY!

Had a nice chillin' weekend.

This is my remedy for a boring friday night. Jägermeister and dried strawberries. mmmm.

........

I hate to be in love

I don´t like being fine

When I´m at worst

Is when I really feel alive

And I can´t stand to see

You happy people smile

Cause I´m a killer

I would love to make you cry

Bring Me Everyone

I need to hurt someone

I´ll give you love, then I turn you down

My work here, it´s done

They say I´m psycho

And should be put behind bars

That I am damaged

And my soul is full of scars

You shiny people

You should never come this far

Cause I´m a killer

I got murder in my heart

Bring Me Everyone

I need to hurt someone

I´ll give you love, then I turn you down

My work here, it´s done

Ringing bells in the sky

Is this the bringer of light

No, you fools, it is I

Run for cover or die

Bring Me Everyone

I need to hurt someone

I´ll give you love, then I turn you down

My work here, it´s done

........

3 weeks. I keep dreaming of you, dreaming that you're coming home. Sometimes I even think I hear you, scratching the backdoor wanting to come inside, but you're not there. It's getting harder and harder to look at any pictures of you, I miss you so much, and the thought of never getting to see you again hurts too much. You're my special little prince, and I love you so much. I just hope that someone has took you in and that you are safe. I won't give up hope on you coming home

Feeling so completely uninspired and bored. Feeling a low period coming, can't let myself fall down now, there's too much depending on my state of mind.

On the upside of things, had a lovely sushi lunch today, I could totally live of sushi for the rest of my life. So if anyone is visiting Uppsala at any point, Ayako's sushi is the place to eat. So fresh and the best sushi I ever had.

Oops I did it again!

I just can't help myself! Random shopping spree, and it feels soooo good. It's days like this when I really live up to the bipolar side of myself, the impulse shopper. It's a good excuse to use, it's a part of the bipolar disorder, and a part I don't mind. So if anyone were to complain about it, I'll just yell, -I'M BIPOLAR YOU FUCK, I HAVE IT ON PAPER. I CAN'T HELP MYSELF SO DON'T JUDGE ME, OR I WILL SWALLOW YOUR SOUL! Ok last part was stolen from Cthulhu, but I bet it would make a stronger impression of being completely mental if I add that. But kids, don't get the wrong impression here. Being bipolar is no walk in the park, and statistics say that I'm very likely to kill myself, so no need to envy me. Joke aside. Shopping is fun, fun, fun, and I could do it every day. I will probably do it tomorrow again, since I need to strut around in my new shoes.

Today it's two weeks since Robert disappeared, starting to doubt I will ever see him again. I miss you so much.

Calls for Cthulhu

This is just awesome.

I've bought a new nail polish, Isadoras graffiti nails. I can't decide wheter I like it or not. I guess I shouldn't have painted it on my old nail polish, but impatient as I am I just had to try it. Gonna remove it and do it properly I think, and it better look good becuase it was fucking expensive, 69skr. Considering I usually spend like 25skr on nail polish. I'm not really cheap when it comes to make up, just nail polish, I don't know why.





Autumn is getting closer and closer, and I love it! It's my favourite time of the year. Pretty colours, rain, wind, darkness... I just love it. It also gives me a good excuse to do some boots shopping. I've been looking around the net for a bit and can't really decide on what boots I want. I did find a pair that I like, I'm not sure if they look as nice in real though as I think they do on the picture. It needs some thinking.

One thing that doesn't need as much thinking is this coat that I've found. It's absolutely gorgeous and I must have it. It's only £45 which is only half of what I was prepared on spending on it when I first saw it. I'm so in love with it.

I am dead tired today, it's exhausting to celebrate birthdays. I got a new camera yesterday that I can't wait to try out, a really cool kettle and the best thing of all...

...A PLUSH CTHULHU!!

HIP HIP HURRAY!

"It's my birthday and I cry if I want to"

Good thing is I don't want to! It's my birthday and I'm the best!

At the moment I don't have time to write so lets party, here's two really good party tunes.^^

And...

Dementia

I think I'm getting dementia. Today when I was out, I discovered that I had put my pants on backwards... I don't even know how I managed to not notice when I did it, or how I could go for about 1 hour without noticing it. I wonder if this is a sign of me getting old, or that I'm just losing my mind. I just hope that no one else noticed. If the did, perhaps they thought I was trying to get the Kriss Kross trend back. Although, I don't think that it was a big hit, to wear the clothes backwards. Hell, I don't even know if anyone else remembers Kriss Kross, so I guess I am getting old.

Bambambambam

Blah. Can't sleep. Seems I'm having one of those periods again when I can't sleep. It's so annoying. I'm tired but I just cant fall asleep. Got nothing to do either, and now I'm bored. And because I'm bored I felt the need to post a picture of me making my, bored-annoyed-don't-want-to-do-anything face. I'm so good at making faces. 


Been looking at some of the pictures I took on my little tourist adventure in the city, will post a few of them that I like. I'm not a very good photographer, and I don't have a very good camera, but it's fun and something I enjoy, so don't be too harsh in judging my pictures.

Have some good news though. Doris is back. She came back yesterday. Robert is still gone though, which sucks! But hopefully this means that they just decided to go exploring somewhere, and that Robert also will come home soon.

I found some strange bugs at the graveyard, I think they were mating!

English pub and curry house. Makes all those lost brits feel right at home?!

cool flower

I visited the cactus house and found this...

Sanitarium

Old psychiatric hospital

Art in the botanical garden made of plastic Ikea cups, toilet brushes and cotton tips. Art is scary...

Robert & Doris are missing

My cats are missing. Both of them, and I'm worried. They never go far from home, usually they just sleep in the backyard all day. I really hope they are safe, and will come home soon, but I'm really worried since it wouldn't be the first time someone snatched cats from this area. There's some serious disturbed fucks living around here. I know it's not unusual that cats wander off for short periods of time, but it is for these two, and specially since they both gone missing at the same time. They are very homebound and rarely leave the yard. I've reported them missing, and I'm gonna make some flyers to put up in the area... But considering how many flyers of missing cats is posted on the local shops wall, I do wonder how well it will turn out...

It's raining...

And it doesn't seem to stop. Not that I mind it. I love sitting in my dark room listening to the rain. Rainy nights make perfect movie nights, and I decided this is one of those nights. Gonna grab my sweets and make myself comfortable in bed and watch two of the best films ever made. Edward Scissorhands and Donnie Darko.



The later of the films also have one of the best soundtracks to it, a song that is perfect for a night like this. Mad world. Oh gosh, such clichés and emo stuff, yikes!

Good thing I don't lose track of my evil side in all this emoness, because I am laughing at the fact it is pissing outside and there is a reagge festival in town. HA IN YOUR FACE BLOODY RASTA PEOPLE!

Now, please enjoy this song. :D

psch

A few months back when I was making my summer plans, I decided that I wouldn't do anything at all this summer. No festivals (which has been the hardest part), no longer trips, no nothing. Just chill out, and enjoying the small things close to home.

One of the reasons for this decision was my pretty tight economy. Well, it's a bit more than tight I would say. It's more like it flushed itself and committed suicide. The other reason is my big birthday that is coming up. I've decided on giving myself a tattoo this year. It's a tattoo I've wanted to have done for years but never got around to it, so now I'v decided to save up and have it done. This is actually the biggest reason for my festival sacrifices.  And of course this weekend is M'era Luna festival. I'm so envious of everyone that's there, and it's with agony I realise I won't be there this year, to meet all the gorgeous people and see some of my favourite bands! I will try not to think about it too much, because when I do, I feel like tearing something apart!

Oh yes, this is another one of my modern day society problems. I want to be a millionaire god dammit!

But on a side note, I changed my hair colour today. It is now purple.

sunday, bloody sunday

Wonder if it's reaching a new all time low, when you wake up hungover after spending a night alone at home?!

...nah...

Feeling a bit emo and down today for no apparent reason, just want to crawl back in bed and watch a boring movie.

Hometown tourist.

Last night I was talking to my bestest friend in the world on msn, and I came up with this great idea that today I was going to play tourist in my hometown and take pictures for him. I decided that it would be very interesting for him to see this, since he lives in London, and doesn't really see anything because of the smog. Amirite Adam? You know I am.

So this morning I packed my high quality camera (yes, that is irony), a bottle of water, some bread and took Dexter with me to the city, to do something that I've not really done before, walk around, without shopping in mind.


Our first stop was the bird pond, where we fed the ducks. Crazy mofos they are those birds, I think I almost started a war when I fed them, they were chasing eachother trying to get the bread pieces. If I'd known they be this hungry I would have brought a whole lot more bread! I will do that next time, since feeding the ducks was something both me and Dexter enjoyed.


I wasn't sure of where to go at first, because the only plan I really had, and the pictures I promised Adam was of the castle cannons and the ducks in the pond.

When we walked through the park, so many thoughts were running through my head, and it was there that I realised how beautiful this city really is. It has so many green areas, which invites to so many recreational activities. And it makes me wonder why I still haven't gone there just to relax and read a book, something I've had plans of doing for the last 2-3 years. I will do it, one day!



When we got up to the castle I met quite a lot of other tourists, running around taking pictures. most of them from further away than me I'm guessing, but it made me feel less awkward when I started taking pictures of everything. The cannons aiming towards the church seemed like an especially popular target for more people than me. The view from up there is quite amazing, no matter what direction you face, there is something beautiful that will catch your eye. Something that caught my eye, and always does when I'm there is the botanical garden. It looks so beautiful, and it's quite amazing that I've never been there. Yet again, it makes me wonder why I never taken the time to go explore my hometown fully. This place is loaded with history, beautiful buildings, museums, parks and of course the botanical garden.

I realise that I am a tourist in my own hometown. I know of all these places, but I've never been to experience them myself. Seeing them when you drive by, is far from the same thing as actually go there. Experience it.

It's weird. When I travel to other places I always take the opportunity to see some of the local sights, so I just don't get why I never have done it here, where I live. It is something that I want to do, something that I need to do, because it makes me feel dumb knowing that I haven't. There is so much history here and in the surrounding areas.



This got me thinking of something else. I've always had a interest in history, Swedish history in particular. It angers me how easily it's being forgotten, especially by the younger people, even by myself. It's our heritage and something we should be proud of. It's where we come from and what's gotten us to where we are today. It just pisses me off to see our country and it's people not knowing, or caring enough, to see that we do have a rich history. Something to be proud of. Instead we just let it fade away, and we've become a country without identity. A country where patriotism is considered something dirty and shameful. Something we do not speak of, in fear of being classed as political incorrect, and that is something worse than cancer.


We encourage free thinking, and praise the freedom of speech. As long as it fits the media approved frame, where words such as patriotism, proud, heritage and swedish is not allowed, unless you use them together with the word shame. Everyday there is at least something in the media that points out that you should be thankful that you are born in Sweden, but not thankful in a good way. They want you to feel guilty about it, and make you open your wallet and give to those less fortunates being born somewhere else in the world. 



Well fuck you, I say. I'm swedish and I'm proud of it, I love my country, and you can never take that away from me, no matter how many guilt trips you try to send me on. This doesn't make me a racist in any way. It just makes me genuine, real person, with a free mind and are able to use it. An ability I wish more people would have.

Oh well, there is nothing like a little bit of raging a saturday afternoon. But I think that before I start of my Mel Gibson speech about taking lives and freedom, I will open my bottle of wine now, and start sending some pictures to the lovely Adam. And to think he didn't believe it when I said we had street signs that lets cats know where it's ok to cross the road!