AVC

I don't really have anything new and exclusive to write about. It's a change, I know.

I just want to share something that is of great importance to me, and means more to me than I can actually put words to.
I'm talking about the amazingly, beautiful music and lyrics, made by the fabulous Anna-Varney Cantodea and her Sopor aeternus and the ensemble of shadows. I never get tired of any of the songs, and when I've been in my lowest, darkest moments, Sopor is the only thing that can soothe me and make me feel safe. Every word, every note, is just hauntingly beautiful.
This song, No one is there is extra special to me because the lyrics is like a tale taken from my own life.

I hope at least some of you out there, take the time to really listen to it, and appreciate it for what it is. Pure beauty.

Bitterness

Insomnia, insomnia, insomnia... My old foe has come back to haunt me. Just what I need at the moment.
And the thoughts that I can't shake, are like a virus eating my brain. I'm not in control, I've lost my focus. I hate the anxiety, the empty feeling I have, of not knowing. The feeling of being ignored... I don't know what to do with myself. It's so exhausting being me. All I want to do is sleep, and right now that's the one thing I can't.

Oh well, I have a lecture in 4 hours. The only positive thing is that in 4 hours the virus in my brain will only feel like a distant memory, but my brain will be a mushy mess that won't know a thing of what's being said. Yaay, life is sweet.

There's no hope...

I surprise myself at times. I thought I knew myself pretty damn good by now, but then tonight I learned that I'm a soft hearted weakling. I've just spent the last half hour crying like a baby. Over a movie... I know right. I've been watching Marley & me. Yes, yes I know, it's been out for ages, I'm behind etc, etc. The film wasn't even that good, still it left me snivelling like mad... I like dogs damnit, what's your excuse?!

Something that probably won't make anyone end up in tears is following me on instagram. I'm posting my awesome( <-- uhu), adventures with my best buddy Darth Vader. To see this awesomeness, look up iodines.

Sneak peak. Me and Vader at a football game!

The cry of mankind

I wonder why they say there's no easy way out. Doesn't it depend on how fast you're running?
I know one thing though. No matter how fast you run, you can't outrun yourself. And it seems my other self is one heck of a runner... I want my easy way out. One day I will have it, and it's the only thing that I want I will ever have...


I'm a fool.

Happy birthday to me!

It's that time of te year again. Totally the best day in history. My birthday, of course. ;)

Had a great day, almost wish it wasn't over. But tomorrow is another exciting day. It's tattoo day!
I know I've Said several times that I'm gonna post pictures of My tattoos, and I will. As soon as I remember! (I PROMISE NUMEH!! :D)

But for now, check out my new babies I got for my b-day. I luv them soooo much and don't want to take them off. Although I suspect they aren't very comfy to sleep in!

Happiness in another box :D

The birthday pressys I've ordered myself arrived this morning, and I'm as happy as a kid in a candy store!!!

A plush Dart Vader bag and the young Lovecraft comics 1 & 2! I'm a happy girl, and so nice that buys myself such sweet birthday presents. :D

I miss you

Hello, I'm still sleeping.

Here's a lullaby to close your eyes...

How I love to hate those games.